Saturday, May 30, 2009

Goin Through It...

The month of May has been extremely overwhelming. Not gonna put all of my business out there but right now I'm definitely in need of a fresh start. So in the month of June I'm gonna focus mainly on myself and gaining a FULL understanding of myself and getting my emotions in check. Because lately I've been an emotional wreck and trying to push my feelings to the side like it's nothing isn't as easy as it used to be. My memory card is officially full and I need to get some of this mess out of my system. It's unhealthy. I barely sleep and I don't eat as much as I used to. NEVER HUNGRY and that's odd for me. I always "claim" to do these things to get ppl off my back. I went from weighing 135 to 127. UNHEALTHY! I recently talked to my friend Dru and omg I thank God for this guy! He made me feel like I wasn't alone throughout this whole situation and made me realize a lot of things about myself. His words so encouraging and hit so close to home. I'm SO GLAD we got back in contact. He's one of the greatest guys ever. Hate on it if you wanna! But I refuse to let this bring me down. So I'm gonna try my best to walk with my head held high and a smile on my face; a real one. So please keep me in your prayers, my loves.


Friday, May 29, 2009


I know I've created and deleted blogs like 32013080134910390 times but um, oh well. Idc about blog followers. I can care less about ppl who don't like what I say because in the end of the day, this is MY blog and I say and do what I please in MY blog. I stopped blogging because I didn't think I had anything interesting to say but I had to realize that it doesn't matter. What I post is up to me and you don't have to read it. Idk where all of this is coming from I guess I'm just venting. But I'm blogging again and I'll make a layout later.